Where did I go?

Summer came and went. So sad. I'm pretty bummed out, and alittle bit stressed this year. My dad is hounding me to get my driver's liscense (I'm studying for my permit test as I type this), I'm paranoid about test scores, and this is the year in which I have three major tests this year. PSSA, PSAT and ofcourse SAT. Plus portolio reviews, and on top of all that, I'm heavily involved in running a club at my school.

And my social life is in the crapper. Yeah, I've got friends. They care about me, but my romance life has been dead for a while now. Most of my close friends live two hours away in New York City. (What I wouldn't give to move back..)

Just.. I just want to sleep. That's all I really want right now.

7.17

I can't believe it... my summer is half over. It really does make me sad. I've traveled around alot so far, though at the moment I can't say I'm necessarily happy. I'm rather annoyed, bored out of my mind. I've been craving some rping but have been unable to really do anything serious. No one really talks on my aim buddy list, and my msn is deciding to crap out on me.

On a good note though, my sister says that she can hook me up with a psp~ That should be especially fun. I want to see if I can get Hatsune Miku: Project Diva, though I'm not sure if the psp has region locks on it or not.. I don't particularly want to poke around in there to try and find out. Meh, whatever. I'll find out soon enough. I'm also starting to realize that I'm one of the few realistically optimistic 'it could always be worse' type of person, contrary to what everyone believes. I'm just so sick of people bitching about how untrustworthy others are. Yes, I dislike people almost always, but I make room to invite others into my life. I'm sick of cynics complaining about life, I'm sick of how people refuse to trust others. The world doesn't revolve around a single person, and no matter how shitty some things may seem, it's realistically impossible for things to stay that way. These are my feelings anyway. Bah. ventventventventvent DDD8<

6.6

Today was abit rough. I couldn't go to bed last night for about an hour and a half because I forgot that my AC was plugged into the socket that wires to my lights. Hense, if the lighs turn off, the AC turns off. So I had to rearrange my ac, carry the damn thing to my other window (whilst spilling water all over my floor), secure it in and get it working. All at 2 in the morning. But I finally did get to sleep. I wasn't able to get my 16 bucks this week because it rained so I couldn't mow the lawn either. I had also been absent from school the last two days so I didn't know when my food project for my spanish food festival was due. Turns out, it's due tomorrow. So, I had to wip up an old favorite of mine, beans and rice in about an hour. It turned out good. Nice and salty, the way I like it. (Anyone else can suck it Dx) The rice was slightly starchy but it was my first time cooking rice so.. sue me.
Ah.. But I cannot wait. four more days of school then I'm out of there.

6.5

I've been very gloomy lately but things are turning up abit. I'm finally down to my final days of school for this year and my brother came home from college. I'm really happy right now. (^ ^) I re-vamped my bedroom now that I actually have an aire conditioner. (Now I never want to leave my room!) But I moved my bed and desk around. I also relocated my art related stuff, such as my art box and my misc. portfolios.
Two weeks from today I'll be jamming it up at AnimeNEXT's rave~ I cannot wait!

Goings on of a ranting whiney angsty teen

I'm really confused about myself lately. With my romantic feelings, who I am, ect. I think I want to start growing my hair out again. I miss it being long. I feel like something is missing y'know? And I really just want to shut myself off from the outside. I hate where I live, and have very few friends. I've burned countless bridges this year. I don't want to go to school and am dangeriously close to just cutting classes that I don't care about. It's the last week of school and I'm finding it very hard to keep caring. My friends were my support, they kept me sane in the stupid drama infested crack pot that is my high school. But I can't stand being around them. I think I'm just too picky with people. I tend to notice one thing about a person and it just nags at me constantly until I lash out or can't stand to be around them. I hate passive agressive people who let others do whatever the hell they want. I hate hypocrites. I hate people who don't respect boundries. I hate how the people I am forced to be accosiated with choose to live their lives harmfully and in a way that makes me sick. I hate liars.
I guess I hate alot of things, don't I?

6.3

It's been a few weeks now that I think about it. It's been tough these passed few weeks. I only have five days left of school, but I couldn't even bring myself to get up out of bed today. Instead I just lied and said I was sick. Win some, lose some I suppose.
I just have to put up with a few more days then I'm home free for the summer. I'm only posting to let anyone who actually reads the blog a heads up that I'm still alive. c:

5.15 MMO Galore

A website that I frequent came out with a new MMO feature a year or two ago. I never tried it, felt no desire to. The only mmo I had played before was a Korean one named Wonderland. Well lately, my close friend had gotten involved in this website's MMO. I didn't really wanna play it at first. And I still find it annoying, getting used to the controls. But it's a good time waster, even if my friend doesn't want to do anything else. (>_>)U
I still have my map project to start... I so far only did one out of three assignments this weekend.. My map project for my workoholic global studies teacher is a major project that was assigned a week ago and I have yet to even touch it.
... How many days left...? 19...? Too long..

5.9

I think I'm only going to get to update this blog a couple times a week. ( Namely on weekends. ) Either from laziness or lack of time. ( I don't know which ;;; ) Tomorrow starts the five week count down until the end of my school year. I officially have about twenty four days left. I'm really excited for summer vacation~ I'll be going to two conventions, plus visiting some close friends. I'll be visiting some family in Puerto Rico and my dad even said I could start taking martial arts classes over the summer. (Mostly since it's too late to join the martial arts club at school..) Just a few more weeks..

5.8

I haven't updated all week. School has been busy and by the time I get home, I don't feel like posting. Strange, even if I don't have homework... But, today was good. My parents and I went to visit my step-brother and picked up my oldest brother from College because his semester ended. He'll have to go back in a few weeks for his internship though.
Ah.. I also keep forgetting to order my ticket for AnimeNEXT, a con in June that a close friend of mine and I are going to together. I also have to order some materials. I'll be cosplaying Edward Elric; his outfit from the end of the manga. Because he doesn't wear gloves in that time frame, I'll have to make automail. I'm going to order to craft aluminum and hopefully get something done by June.
I also feel a bit bad. I missed out on posting anything on my deviantART for 5 0 3. I made an EdxWin AMV for youtube earlier this week but.. it's just not the same.
I can't wait for the summer though. Less then twenty days left.~

5.2

My global teacher is suffocating me with work. I'm in a normal class, yet he treats it like an advanced class and loads us up with homework. It's as if he expects us to spend all of our free time working on homework. Well, I'm sure that I sound like most teenagers, complaining about school work. But usually, I don't often complain about school. I try my best to get good grades, and I don't usually argue with the teacher unless I find something extremely unfair. Too bad 90% of the students in my classes can't grasp the fact that the teachers have to teach certain things because it's in the curriculum. I don't complain about the content, really. Just the work load. None of my other classes have that much work. And he finds the need to get so in depth with the work sheets that I can't find the answers where I'm supposed to look.
Hmph. I got my assignment done for the weekend though, so atleast I can sleep without that bothering me.

5.1 Anime Movie Watching Spree

It all started around Thursday afternoon when I saw a few videos featuring clips from the movie Perfect Blue. So I googled the movie in English and eventually found it. It was extremely entertaining. I watched it again the following day with a friend of mine.
After that, she sent me a link to the movie "Paprika". It's by the same people who made Perfect Blue, and I had heard of it a few times before. I didn't know what to expect because all the previews I had seen made the entire movie look just weird, with no specific plot. Needless to say, I was pleased and surprised when I watched it. The plot was very intriguing and interesting, but that might just be because I've always had a fascination with my dreams. The plot twists and subtle romantic plot also took me for a loop.
When the credits began to roll, a link popped up for another movie. My friend clicked it,as did I and it led us to a movie called "The Girl that leapt through Time". I had seen this once before at a local film festival. (My dad always tells me if there is a Japanese animation playing!) We watched it, and for the most part enjoyed it. Well, my friend was a bit upset with the romantic plot. In a few hours, we're going to watch a Studio Ghibli favorite of mine called "Howl's Moving Castle".
. . .I just noticed that this Saturday is really involved with anime. I still have to watch the new dubbed episode of Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood at 12 tonight...

4.30 (Continued...)

Tonight was opening night for my school's show. Every time I go to see a show at my school, it makes me regret not trying out. But then I remember how shallow our drama club is. Any guy that auditions gets in because of how much the club lacks in male actors. As for the girls, well.. They pick the same people every year. Very rarely do they cast people who are brand new. Bending over backwards doesn't exactly cut it.
So, despite how shallow the club is, the shows always end up amazing. The acting, the singing and the dancing of course. I had one or two friends starring in the show, and really only showed up to show my support, as I always do every year. I'm not sure if it makes any difference to them whether I decide to show or not. But I still enjoy their performances.

4.30

New user is new :D I wanted to start keeping a blog. Sure, I keep a visual diary in my sketch book, but I don't want to go through the trouble of having to constantly scan my pages. I haven't scanned anything since my own scanner broke back in January.
Can't wait for June though. School gets out four days early~